I am back! It has been such a long time since I last blogged or even read a blog. Discounting Tumblr of course.

Things are heating up right now in my life, what with four assignments due in the next three weeks, and then exams immediately after. AND THEN it'll all be over! I would have finally finished my undergraduate studies (if I pass these last 4 modules). I seriously did not enjoy going back to school as much as I had thought I would, although I guess it being part-time made a huge difference. And can you imagine that the module I liked studying for most was Calculus and Statistics? I really miss the O'levels.

I've been on an active job search for about a month now, but I can't seem to find either a job I liked enough to do it for more than a year, or one that I liked and suited my qualifications. Almost all of the jobs that caught my eye only wanted diplomas, really.

One day, I got an idea, explored it a little, told my mum about it and it is seemingly in motion now. I'm sorry about the cryptic story, but it is a little hard to execute and I still do not know if this is what God wants me to do even after praying tons. So, I prefer to keep things under wraps first until they are more or less confirmed.

I will be back with news, though perhaps sometime next year looking at the frequency, or lack thereof, of my posts.

25

Yesterday was my 25th birthday and there's a part of me that is in denial that I have lived for a quarter of a century. Sometimes I feel like I should be 3-4 years younger; other times I feel a sense of urgency to move on to the next phase of my life, especially when I see friends my age or even younger settling down and having babies. I cannot help but wonder when it'll be my turn and eagerly await the time when my life would officially begin.

On the other hand, I am thankful for the past 25 years and having been brought thus far. I thank God everyday for my family, the blessings He has shown me, and the tests and challenges He has put me through to make me who I am today.

May the next quarter be everything I hoped for and more :)

Me Time

I realise there is such a thing as too much me time. I've been getting kinda bored with myself recently, running out of things to do and nua-ing has lost its novelty. It feels like I've been in uniSim since forever and the end is not in sight even though this is my last year.  :(

他眼里有你

我攀登了万仞的高冈
荆棘扎拦了我的衣裳
我向缥缈的云天外望
上帝，我望不见你！


我向坚厚的地刻里掏
捣毁了蛇龙们的老巢
在无底的深潭里我叫
上帝，我听不到你！


我在道旁见一个小孩
活泼，秀丽，褴楼的衣衫
他叫声妈，眼里亮着爱
上帝，他眼里有你！


--徐志摩